Even seemed intent on making this room his personal library. Kadaj dimly recalled Aizen responding to the discovery of the weather machine, and the gardens outside, with shutting off all the new natural light in the Palace's main library. It must be a book thing, he decided.
He sat in Even's chair at the desk a little warily. From this vantage point, Even seemed even taller.
He'd killed Orochimaru, and that was where this had all begun. He'd killed Orochimaru, which had meant he now had to think about every step he made from here on, and part of that was making sure he could look after himself against the rest of the clan.
"You know I have bankai," he began, glancing at Even, and then staring at the desk instead because it was easier to speak to that. Everyone knew he had bankai by now, and there had been coos and twitters that it was a dual wielding one, because they were unusual, but no one except Kadaj's friends, and Gin, and Nnoitra knew about the other abilities it came with or Kadaj wouldn't still be alive now. "I've learned it recently, I've learned a lot of things recently," he admitted. "I was never much good at real chakra control before, but I learned," he had to learn, really.
"There's one thing I still can't get," he said, trying not to squirm, looking at the table, and then looking at Even, "and I need it if I'm going to survive." He looked away again before he finally said, out loud, "I can't do magic." He scowled. "I know some bits, but nothing very strong, just enough that I can use some of the spellsword abilities. But that's all."
This time he made himself look directly at Even, assessing his expression before he explained, "I've been in Khamja since I was fourteen. I've stayed alive by being useful, or not being a threat, but that won't last much longer, and this is something I can't teach myself."
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Date: 2016-01-25 12:14 am (UTC)He sat in Even's chair at the desk a little warily. From this vantage point, Even seemed even taller.
He'd killed Orochimaru, and that was where this had all begun. He'd killed Orochimaru, which had meant he now had to think about every step he made from here on, and part of that was making sure he could look after himself against the rest of the clan.
"You know I have bankai," he began, glancing at Even, and then staring at the desk instead because it was easier to speak to that. Everyone knew he had bankai by now, and there had been coos and twitters that it was a dual wielding one, because they were unusual, but no one except Kadaj's friends, and Gin, and Nnoitra knew about the other abilities it came with or Kadaj wouldn't still be alive now. "I've learned it recently, I've learned a lot of things recently," he admitted. "I was never much good at real chakra control before, but I learned," he had to learn, really.
"There's one thing I still can't get," he said, trying not to squirm, looking at the table, and then looking at Even, "and I need it if I'm going to survive." He looked away again before he finally said, out loud, "I can't do magic." He scowled. "I know some bits, but nothing very strong, just enough that I can use some of the spellsword abilities. But that's all."
This time he made himself look directly at Even, assessing his expression before he explained, "I've been in Khamja since I was fourteen. I've stayed alive by being useful, or not being a threat, but that won't last much longer, and this is something I can't teach myself."