Kadaj walked slowly to the sunhouse, deep in thought. He found that he liked Even, in the same way that he liked Nel. Nel was calm, and patient, and kind to him, without talking down to him. Even had been the same, and it had made Kadaj feel like he'd been listened to. They didn't really know each other yet, outside of a few interactions, but Kadaj felt like he'd gained, if not an ally then, a confidante.
It was different to his friendship with Tayuya, which was grounded in mutual experiences and a longstanding crush Kadaj had gotten over shortly before Grimmjow had entered their lives. It was very different from his relationship with Grimmjow, in which Kadaj kept secrets because Grimmjow used his fists before his brain, and while Kadaj mostly trusted him not to hurt him there was always that sense that he was, in some way, Grimmjow's territory. There was Kuja, whom Kadaj adored despite himself but these days trusted little, a fact which hurt and Kadaj didn't want to voice. Then there was Gin. Who Kadaj trusted more than he trusted most of the others, but only in the sense that he trusted Gin to be up to something far beyond Kadaj's comprehension, in which Kadaj may or may not be a pawn, but somewhere along the line of Gin's grander machinations he'd found the time to prod Kadaj in the direction to growing stronger and more independent and more able, even if he hadn't led him down that path by the hand. Which meant that, in a weird way, Kadaj also trusted Gin not to be out to hurt him, although that always left the possibility that Kadaj may be hurt as an unhappy byproduct of something Gin was doing.
There was Nnoitra, who Kadaj had loathed, but their mutual hatred of Orochimaru had brought them together to ensure his demise, and that had fostered geniality between the two of them. The geniality was there with Even, too. It had no right to be, but since Hojo had intruded, and Even had supported him with advice, Kadaj had been more kindly disposed towards Even. He'd had to take some time out to think and accept that their issue with Even, and the berserker, was mostly a game of tit for tat, borne of each side wanting to protect their own against the other. Kadaj didn't actually have any fight with Even, and it wasn't fair to hold a group enmity against the berserker over Even's head when they were no longer associated.
Tayuya had explained about that part. Even and the berserker had split up, and Even had joined Khamja. Kadaj doubted he'd joined solely by his own choice; he'd have been presented with options, and one of them would have been 'or we kill you'. Kadaj was familiar enough with how Khamja worked for that one. If someone in Khamja really, really wanted him, it wouldn't have been a simple 'or we kill you', it would have been 'or we kill you, everyone you love, and everyone they love, and we'll leave you until last'. Even seemed intent on making the most of it, but Kadaj doubted he'd have come running to Khamja as his first choice after splitting from the others, because who in their right mind would?
He was lost in this train of thought when he entered the sunhouse, where Grimmjow and the others who were part of their little group lurked. Yylfordt was nursing his injured pride after being beaten by Kadaj on their sparring session this morning, but Kadaj didn't think the victory meant much, yet. He wasn't yet beating Yylfordt every time they sparred.
Once he did, he'd move on up a tier and try a different Arrancar, which put Luppi next on Kadaj's hit list. Or maybe he'd invite Apache along for the ride in sessions with Yylfordt first. It might be better preparation for taking on Luppi.
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Date: 2016-01-27 12:35 am (UTC)It was different to his friendship with Tayuya, which was grounded in mutual experiences and a longstanding crush Kadaj had gotten over shortly before Grimmjow had entered their lives. It was very different from his relationship with Grimmjow, in which Kadaj kept secrets because Grimmjow used his fists before his brain, and while Kadaj mostly trusted him not to hurt him there was always that sense that he was, in some way, Grimmjow's territory. There was Kuja, whom Kadaj adored despite himself but these days trusted little, a fact which hurt and Kadaj didn't want to voice. Then there was Gin. Who Kadaj trusted more than he trusted most of the others, but only in the sense that he trusted Gin to be up to something far beyond Kadaj's comprehension, in which Kadaj may or may not be a pawn, but somewhere along the line of Gin's grander machinations he'd found the time to prod Kadaj in the direction to growing stronger and more independent and more able, even if he hadn't led him down that path by the hand. Which meant that, in a weird way, Kadaj also trusted Gin not to be out to hurt him, although that always left the possibility that Kadaj may be hurt as an unhappy byproduct of something Gin was doing.
There was Nnoitra, who Kadaj had loathed, but their mutual hatred of Orochimaru had brought them together to ensure his demise, and that had fostered geniality between the two of them. The geniality was there with Even, too. It had no right to be, but since Hojo had intruded, and Even had supported him with advice, Kadaj had been more kindly disposed towards Even. He'd had to take some time out to think and accept that their issue with Even, and the berserker, was mostly a game of tit for tat, borne of each side wanting to protect their own against the other. Kadaj didn't actually have any fight with Even, and it wasn't fair to hold a group enmity against the berserker over Even's head when they were no longer associated.
Tayuya had explained about that part. Even and the berserker had split up, and Even had joined Khamja. Kadaj doubted he'd joined solely by his own choice; he'd have been presented with options, and one of them would have been 'or we kill you'. Kadaj was familiar enough with how Khamja worked for that one. If someone in Khamja really, really wanted him, it wouldn't have been a simple 'or we kill you', it would have been 'or we kill you, everyone you love, and everyone they love, and we'll leave you until last'. Even seemed intent on making the most of it, but Kadaj doubted he'd have come running to Khamja as his first choice after splitting from the others, because who in their right mind would?
He was lost in this train of thought when he entered the sunhouse, where Grimmjow and the others who were part of their little group lurked. Yylfordt was nursing his injured pride after being beaten by Kadaj on their sparring session this morning, but Kadaj didn't think the victory meant much, yet. He wasn't yet beating Yylfordt every time they sparred.
Once he did, he'd move on up a tier and try a different Arrancar, which put Luppi next on Kadaj's hit list. Or maybe he'd invite Apache along for the ride in sessions with Yylfordt first. It might be better preparation for taking on Luppi.